There is no fear in love; instead, true love drives out fear
1 John 4:18

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Day 4 — Your sibling

Dear Little Sis,
I am not going to lie. We dont talk a lot. And we really dont get along. And quite frankley I dont like that. I dont like feeling like we get in a fight every time we see each other. Its sad really.
You have the most beautiful voice. I wish I was half as talanted as you are in singing. Whenever I hear you sing I just want to point you out to everyone and say "hey thats my little sister" I am so proud of you in everything that you do. I hope that we do get to be closer in these next few years. I love you so much lil sis.

Day 3 — Your parents

Dear Parents,
Dont worry. No matter what I will always love you. You have dealt with me for 19 years now. And I do have to say, all but one of them was very easy for you. I was a good kid in high school. I did my homework, I worked, I didnt fuss when you said something couldnt be done. I listened to you, and I listened well. You raised me to be the person I am. Strong and Independent. Thats what I am. So let me be strong and independent. People need to make mistakes in life. They need to fall flat on their face before they can see a decision is wrong and not make that choice again. Let me fall. Dont hold me back. I am just starting to grow, and yea sometimes you may not like the direction I am growing, but this is me, not you. You are not here to judge me, you are not here to ridicule me. You are here to help me and guide me. We have been through so much together. We have had many hard times that we have had to struggle with but we have made it. Now it is time to let me struggle on my own a bit. I thank you for putting a roof over my head and food in my belly (well the food is questionable if you know what our fridge looks like). Its time to step bad though. I know this is going to hurt you to do this, but let me make decisions for myself. I love you guys. You are the best parents a girl could ask for. I hope you are able to look past the bad that we have had and see that I am the daughter that many wish for, but you were so lucky to get stuck with.
I can not say that I am happy to be home though. I have experienced life on my own, so moving back is going to be a really tough move for me. I do not exactly know how the move back home happened. I guess one day someone said UT and I just said yes to keep the peace. But ever move has its positives. I just still gotta find it in this one. Please. Please dont hover over me while I am at home. Dont ask me if I have done my homework or if I am getting hours at work. Thats just going to make me really mad. I am a big girl, but unfortunately this big girl doesnt have money for rent or food for herself yet. Soon though I will. I promise I will be back out of the house before you know it. Maybe a year or so, who knows. But for now, lets just get along, I dont want to start this year off on the wrong foot.
I love you, thank you so much for everything that you have given me.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Day 2 — Your Crush

Okay.. So I told you I would get behind :) I am supposed to be on day 4.. But here goes with day 2!

Dear Crush,
Well you are a little more than my crush. You are my best friend, my lover, and my one and only. I am a little peeved with you right now, and you know why. But I am going to leave it at that. Except next time I ask you to not do something and I tell you that something is not a good idea....... LISTEN TO ME! I am a smart well rounded girl who has my bearings in life. I know smart from stupid so yea, listen to me! Ugh I am so mad at you right now. I dont even know if mad is the right word. I am upset. I am hurt. I want to cry and scream at you. I want to hold you and hug you and smack you for being such a dumb ass. Why. Why did you have to go and do something so stupid! Everything was perfect. We were perfect, your job was perfect, you were coming home even! Idk babe. And ugh now your telling me that you want to break up. BULL SHIT! O my goodness. Just own up to your mistake and deal with it. Who cares! Ugh I want to strangle you sometimes!
No matter how stubborn or thick headed you are, I don't care. that is one of the many things that I love about you. There is something deeper there between you and me. There is something between you and me that only a few people ever get to expirence! I love you so much. I would do anything in my power to be with you right now. Minutes without you seem like hours and hours seem like days. These days are hard but in the end they are worth it. Please. I promise you its worth it. That hug after a tough month, the first kiss after two away. If you feel the same thing I feel for you then nothing can stop us. Do Not let anything stop us. I love you babe. I always will. Always and Forever. I love you in no way that I will ever be able to love another. Dont give up. I never will.


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Day 1 — Your Best Friend(s)

My Dearest Bestest Friends,
I dont think you know how much you mean to me. To have a best friend means that I have someone who no matter what will be there for me. Having you 2 as my girls has meant the world to me this past year. I know that no matter what has happened, or no matter what I have done, or no matter what you have done, we will always be there for each other. We are best friends, and now that I am home we better become closer. I have missed you so much over this last year at school. It was hard to go away after we had finally become really close. I mean we were practically inseperable! Then school and ugh! But this year is OUR year. Our year to be inseperable again (well when work allows that). Our year to be the best friends we were again. I miss you girls so much. I am so happy I am home to be with you.

Love always,

a letter a day

So I saw this on a friends wall and I thought this might be a good thing to blog.. So I am going to try to do this.. Dont worry if I get a day or two behind sometimes.. I have a tendency to be forgetful :) haha.. I'm not going to use names just because I dont want to haha! But here is the list and the next post will be the first letter :) Maybe this will give you a deeper view into the person I am.. I hope you enjoy!


Day 1 — Your Best Friend(s)
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I did it

Well.. I told my parents.. Well actually I txted my mom.. And I told her that my Marine and I are back together.. I am so excited to have the cat out of the bag! My parents dont like my boy for some reason.. Idk.. They do not know him like I do.. And the thing is I dont expect them to ever get to know him like I do.. Becuase I am the on in the relationship.. Not them..

Some of you may be confused if you dont know me.. My Marine and I started dating November 21, 2009.. We moved things fast at first and that is not to say that I was not ready.. But it is to say that they are not ready to let go.. They treat me like I am a child.. Making decisions for me and saying what I can or can not do.. I am tired of being treated like a 5 year old.. So during these past 9 months they have looked past how happy he has made me and all the good he has done.. He has made me the happiest person in the world..

But anyways.. We broke up a few weeks ago and ever since then they have been all like "do not go back.. he isn't right.. he isn't good.." its like OMG SHUT UP! IM A BIG GIRL HERE! I KNOW WHAT IS GOOD FOR ME AND I KNOW WHAT ISNT.. SO LET ME MAKE MY DECISIONS BY MYSELF! You dont know him.. Don't judge him for a few mistakes we have made.. No one is perfect.. No one.. Not even me.. Can fit into their cookie cutter mold of a person.. UGH! I am sure that I will vent on here more times..

But anyways.. I am happy.. I am completely IN LOVE with trent and that is all that matters.. If I am happy then I am happy..

So my words of wisdom for the day.. If you cant accept me when I make decisions that you don't like.. Then you don't deserve to share in my happiness.. Or.. If you arent happy with my decisions.. BITE YOUR TOUNG.. Cuz I am tired of making everyone else happy.. So from now on I am going to make myself happy..
Ha.. Whoever is reading this.. That is not directed at you.. Its directed at people in my life who try to make my business theirs.. :)

Love you all!


Sunday, July 25, 2010

Welp.. Here goes nothing

So this is my first blog.. I am not sure what to do.. So here goes nothing!

Hey.. Whoever is out there.. My name is Lauren.. But yall can call me Lo.. I am 19 years old and a sophomore in college.. I am transfering colleges this year to the University of Toledo.. Go ROCKETS :) Business Major or something like that.. I am so ready to be done with school already though.. I want to dule inrole at the local community college so that way I can get the credits and get out.. Yea most people would say that I am rushing the best years of my life.. But i believe that the best years of my life are still to come..

Transfering colleges means moving home for me right now.. Hopefully soon I will move out of my parents house.. Gotta make the money first though! I have wonderful friends and a great family.. And I am in love with the most wonderful person in the entire world.. For the most part my life is normal.. "The most part" being key there..

The boy that I am head over heals with is in the USMC.. He is an amazing boy and I am crazy in love with him.. Being in the Marine Corps means that our relationship is over distance.. About 800 miles actually.. I live in the Toledo area of Ohio and he is down at Camp Lejeune.. Normally I do okay with the distance.. But lately it has definently been getting the best of me.. Like way bad..

Problem in this relationship also steps in when I hit the home front.. My parents do not really like him :/ and THAT SUCKS! I dont think they understand what a major part of my life this boy is to me.. He is kind and funny and sweet and cute and........ haha the list goes on! But any ways.. I want my parents to like him and I want him to like my parents.. He means the world to me and I believe that I mean the world to him..

Okay enough about that.. I am a normal person 2 :) I played volleyball ever since I was in 3rd grade.. We actually lied about my age so I could start playing earlier! I played one season of college volleyball and was actually really good.. My coach was negative and mean.. so I decided that there was more to life than living in a gym.. So I quit volleyball and I joined a wonderful sorority.. ALPHA CHI OMEGA.. AXO is where I met my best friend.. She has helped me through so much.. But now she is down at Camp Lejeune with her husband.. I am so happy for her but I miss her tons!

Well I dont exactly know what else to add.. I am a fun loving girl who is easy to talk to so dont be afraid of me.. promise i dont bite! But for now this is what I have.. So until next time I hope you have a great day/night/afternoon/ whatever time of day it is for yoU!

Love You All,